Pinochio's story goes...

i just want to be real.

Venting...

Ok so I always knew i wasn't perfect, nobody is.
I have many flaws, imperfections etc... the list goes on.
But anyways I'm jus realizing who I am.
I know real late in life, but better now than later.
I AM ME. people can think what they want and how they want.
But I know me, and my TRUES know me....they know who they are too btw =]


I want to change.not the person i am.but the person i am physically.
GOSH i'm a effin fat mess. lolbut hey at least i can laugh about it.
at least i actually KNOW i need to lose weight.
i need to lose about umteen trillion million pounds.
then and only then will i be happy!




I'm searching for change.
or someone who can bring me change.
i'm not an effin princess and i am NOT NOT NOT looking for prince charming.
i want a REAL guy.with REAL problems REAL emotions and REAL stuggles.
i dont need nor do i desire this fairytale type bull they feed to young girls.
guys my age..most guys my age are immature.
that is EXACTLY why i like older guys.
they know more about life.
their more experienced.
they can hold a conversation without making the word sauce sexual.


I'm no where near innocent and a step away from frustration.
I get attached too easily.
But I can break away like I never knew the person.
I have secrets that few know.
very few...very very very few.


God blessed me with a FANTASTIC mother.
whom i take for granted all the time.
and i regret it.


Unfortunately i have a TERRIBLE HORRIBLE DEADBEAT father.
whom i hate.
and wish i never asked him to come back into my life.
he'll get what he deserves.


God however blessed me with a CARING grandfather.
who has been like father.
more of a father than 'Barry' can ever be.


He gave me, an only child, sisters.
AND I LOVE THEM!
they are my family and i DO NOT care what anyone thinks.
they have been there with me through all my problems.
they know everything about me.
EVERYTHING EVERYTHING EVERYTHING
i can speak to them like i can speak to no others.
they never judge me.
and they never look at me crooked.
A,B,L I can never lose contact with you guys.
I wanted to let you know that you guys are the world to me.


P&R i feel like this year i have grown extremly close to you guys.
I freakin love you!!!
i can be myself around you guys....my true self
not my im in school let me hide it kinda self.
i have a crazy amount of respect for you two.
You keep me on track =]
And there's so much more i can say that i wouldn't even know where to start writting!
but the 3 of us got the month of January on lock!!



Yeahh this is just my random vent.
because i felt like it =/
haha yeahh i know wtf? right.
i just felt like it, LOVE YOU GUYS MUCHO.
anywayss more notes in the future =]
btw if your not tagged in this note i still LOVE YOU!!
there's a handful more of people i couldve taged
but tagging them would be pointless in this note =]
but if i love you you know it =]

*BonKs

DANGERS ON THE TIP OF HER FINGERS.

I'MMMM BACKKK!

YEAH I KNOW IT'S BEEN A WHILE BUT I'M HERE NOW.

SCHOOL STARTED AND EVERYTHING HAS BEEN VERY VERY VERY BUSY.

I'VE BEEN GOING CRAZY WITH THE COLLEGE ADMISSIONS PROCESS.

AND EVERYTHING IS JUST MOVING AT GEAR 6 RIGHT NOW.

SOO START EXPECTING POST MORE OFTEN AND SOOONER.

*BONKs

Diet.

beginsss now.

4 months, 10 reasons, 1 me.

And so comes the end to my endless summer.

ok, so tomorrow is the first day of school.
i completely dread it!
though this summer was extremely boring,
and i spent most of my time at jamba or doing stuff around the house,
I'm not ready to deal with dumb ass teachers,
annoying ass students with no common sense ,
and of course actual work and text books.
and this is the end to my endless summer,
because next year college starts and I'll
be about the books, jobs and getting paid
for however long it takes.

goodbye summer I'm really gonna miss you.

SHORT HAIR.

MY HAIR JOURNEY.

ok..

so i don't know how i feel about my new hair cut ?
it's looks nice some days
and terrible the next.
and it's all my fault cause i wanted to go for "something new."
if i ever need something 'new' again it's just going to be another weave of some sort.
so far i have had two breaks down of regret for cutting my hair and taking my weave out.
NO BUENO.

i don't know what it is but i jus have more self-confidence with my longer hair.

just call me the female samson i guess.

right now it looks okay, after messing with it FOREVER!

WHAT KINDA GIRL DO YOU THINK I ARE?

THE KIND THAT YOU MEET IN A BAR?

OLD, BUT THE DEMOCRATIC CONVENTION IS SOON.

SOO, I THOUGHT I'D POST IT.

WHY YOU DR. KILLJOY...SHOOTING UP THE PARTY!?

CHAMPION KANYE WEST.

Dear Life,

Thank you for my wake up call.
Thank you for finally telling me what I am here for.
Thank you for allowing me to find my true friends.
Thank you for a mother that cares, even when I'm having one of those days.
Thank you for all the blessings God haves given me.
Thank you for allowing me to find a source of income.
Thank you for the gift of music.
Thank you for letting me find myself after so many years.
and Thank you for life.

Stop and Think.

Do you value yourself?

Random, but...

I just DO NOT like Miley Cyrus



wtf is she useful for?

I FREAKIN' LOVE THESE GIRLS NO MATTER WHAT!

::taken outside of Amy Ruth's in Harlem after and Art Show in the Heights

That Day.

soooo

if you were there you know.
if you weren't you don't.
and you won't.

good timess

There

A Little Summer Shine For Ya'

Check out these drawings by KanyeLive.com member WILL23 done in Microsoft Paint

Kanye has a Jesus piece.

Jesus has a Kanye piece.





this was done on PAINT!!!

i can't even draw a straight line on paint!

So I Hit a Rough Patch..

...forgive me geez

..DO YOU KNOW WHAT TODAYYYY IS?

world's best picture




world's most slick form of a death trap





world's most candid picture taken by one's self




world's prettiest home made cake

COOL OUTRAGEOUS LOVERS OF UNIQUELY RAW STYLE.

...just in case you haven't lol

btw. peep kanye's move towards the end LMAOO. man i love him!

I AM IGNORANCE'S ENEMY SO STAY OUT OF THE VICINITY.

dmnshfsdhfasjfs!!!!

gosh, i hate ignorant people.

they need their own island.

I HAVE AN INTERVIEW TODAY.

with...

0o0o yeah.

Mission Impossible.

FIND THIS BAG!

Hey Ms. Francois....hey hello.

yeah it's been a minute

ONE MONTH WITHOUT YOU.

Daniel Anthony Jones.
my cousin. my laughter. one of the best people i ever met.

things don't get easier.

Be Kanye ver2. ABSOLUT VODKA AD!

If you don't know, now you know.

"Music speaks what cannot be expressed, soothes the mind and gives it rest, heals the heart and makes it whole, flows from heaven to the soul.”

ok so all this music talk is really making me think. "what music talk is this chick talking about," is most likely what you thinking. Go on facebook and one of my friends [rita] wrote a note about Hampton University's band camp. I'm still pissed as I don't know what that i wasn't able to go this year but hey life is life and i need to get some cash flow before i can have a ocean if you know what i mean. anyways her note spoke out to me. to actually be in a place where people your age actually think like you, it's mind blowing. where people your age can get lost in music and find extreme happiness every single time they step on the field to preform. I had the opportunity to attended this camp last year and enjoyed every single minute of what some people would call " musical torture." Music to me, it's not something that i consider as a career path but it's def. something i see being in my life forever. I grew up around music and was raised around music. It's a lifestyle. It's my lifestyle.

in the spirit of everyone fighting for the section, all i have to say is...

PICCOLOS ALL DAY EVERYDAY, WHERE WE GO THE TREBLE FOLLOWS!!

we use the most lung power and the most air for our instruments

we're small but powerful! lol haha yeaaaaah.

and i finish with one last question.

WHAT IS THE FOOTBALL TEAM DOING ON OUR FIELD!?

words for thought.

"...Remind yourself. Nobody built like you, you design yourself..."
-Jay-Z




i missed a couple of days so i'm gonna make up for it.

I GOT WHAT IT TAKES TO ROCK THE MIC RIGHT, YEAAH!

IN PHILLY FOR THE DAY, CHUMPS!

DEADED.

jesse james.

Not Needed.

UK ARTIST OF THE MONTH: SONNY J MASON

I'M MOVING TO LONDON!!!!!!!!

america step your game up!

this is some real music

Rogue Lion Films

I'm killing you with the kanye, I know I know!

but he's my idol and i just keep finding stuff.

ok, so i stumbled upon this video on youtube.

Some people [RLF, Rogue Lion Films] doing a video for Bittersweet.
I love it.

Get Em' Bodied.

crazy.

stole from kanye's blog.

Be Kanye.

Be Kanye

HAHAA. I know I'm late but I was dying when I saw this.

He Claims He's Only With Me for the Currency

just got my first paycheck from jamba.



..and I got that Kool-Aid Smile all the way to the bank.

JUST IN !!!!

a throw back !MAJOR! haha this is what my sophomore year in high school consisted of.



Featured on this track: Rashard
Bianca (moi)
Marcelle, who's currently stuck somewhere in Haiti

Just Asking

Have you ever felt you, you ever want to ' kill her' and you mix them emotions with ' tequilla'....

...and you mix that with a little bad advice on one of those bad nights you have a bad fight and you talking bout her family her aunts and shit and she say muthaf*%&er you mom's a B&*CH!


i guess it's bittersweet poetry.

Artist of the Week:: Kanye Omari West

It's only right that i start this saga off with my idol, the Louis Vuitton Don, Kanye Omari West , Mr. YeWest if you please. Kanye was born in Atlanta, GA June 8, 1977. When his parents came to the decision to divorce he moved to Chicago, IL [Chi-town, if you will]. It was in Kanye's blood to be a rebel and to speak for what he believed in. His father was a former Black Panther and his late mother a college English professor. Kanye took classes at American Academy of Art, Chicago school and later transferred to Chicago State University, where he realized the college life just wasn't for him. Kanye dropped out and perused his music career.
"He later gained fame by producing hit singles for major hip hop/R&B artists, including Jay-Z, Talib Kweli, Cam'ron, Paul Wall, Common, Mobb Deep, Jermaine Dupri, Scarface, The Game, Alicia Keys, Janet Jackson and John Legend among others. He also "ghost-produced" for his mentor Deric Angelettie, according to his song 'Last Call' and the credits of Nas' 'Poppa Was a Playa.'" Now I can go on and on on this egotistical rapper/designer/artist, but i promised myself I would make this brief and short. Ya'll know the albums and if you don't look them up BUY THEM and LISTEN to them, I promise you'll love them, I know I did! Mr. West is fantastic an Idol in my eyes, God of the Game, Heart of the City, Rocafella Chain! So now that you have a little knowledge on The Louis Vuitton Don himself, learn his lyrics, and pick up his book tittle Thank You, and Your Welcome.


Good Life Video

...or use my arrogance as a steam to power my dreams

" Being black, the right kind of black, was difficult. it was like being in a cult-a secret society with rules as fluid as waves..."

stop. and think.

cause frankly I'm done with bring told I'm not black, or not black enough. Is my skin not brown? And damn, let's be real we all know my nose is type wide. Is black not suppose to be proper? What defines "black" cause last time I checked black was a color and um...we're different shades.

stop. reflect.

why is this coming from our own race? I mean damn aren't we suppose to be helping build each other up?
I'm not saying all black all the time cause lord knows I love me white and asian and spanish friends to death! but let's not tear each other down. ok?

yess people the job hunt still continues....

Andre 3000, Where is Erykah Badu At?

she's on her way to work.

morning blog worldd. I'm new to this thing, first post on a loud ass New Jersey Transit bus where two old hood rats are poppin' their gum little kids are laughing at the top of their lungs and this west indian lady thinks she has to yell to talk on her god damned cell phone. Currently working at Jamba Juice, yeah the people are mad nice but I don't think I can stay there any longer the job search begins now...

I'll hit ya'll up later tonight loves? ok? greaaat.